I've been stressing so much, it's affecting my sleep and my appetite. I'm so depressed over my classes because I have a class where I might fail if the director of this group kind of thing kicks me out. I'll fail the stupid class because he blackmails me for no reason, snooping through my stuff and one of my exes are convincing him to kick me out. I'm also struggling to get back at my feet because the guy I used to like for 3 years (moved on after he did a d*** move), broke up with me. He told me he loved me and stuff and after three damn days, he breaks up with me and tells the most crappiest excuse on Earth, blaming it on my ex. It didn't really bother me because I knew it was coming, but the thing that pissed me off was when I found out he still liked this girl, and flirted with her during our relationship. This girl is my 'friend.' She likes to ruin my life by taking him in the first place, because him and I were really close until she sabotaged our relationship. She knows that we were dating yet she continued to flirt with him. She knew that I was hurt and acted like nothing happened. All of this is hurting me, I feel like I'm in a dark place, my 'squad'/ group of friends hate me because she influenced them to, the only one that I kinda have left is my best friend who does care about me, but doesn't try hard enough, but it's fine. I feel so horrible about myself, that I want to illegally drink and smoke to relieve myself.