I'm so stressed out. I feel trapped on all sides, and every move I make just fucks up my life even more. I can't do anything. I've lost all motivation to do anything at all. I want so badly to just end it all, to just be at peace, even if it means damning everyone I know to a life of grief. I'm never going to change. I've been like this for years and it always comes back to feeling this way, even if it was o.k. temporarily.