Hello... Life is hard. I have been successful, but lately a complete failure and embarrassment. I love amazing young kids that will be fine whether I live or die. I am currently going through a divorce...it's hard. My in-laws are extremely wealthy and have threatened my financial and parenting future. I am a good person but have done some things which I am not proud of. My best friend, whom I helped recover from a heroin addiction is also threatening my future. I really want to disappear. I am lonely,scared, depressed and feel betrayed. I am very generous and am just about read to snap. This is so hard, my children are so amazing and we are close...but how can I be a good father if I am shamed severely? I always thought suicide was a permanent solution to a temporary problem...I just feel sad. Really sad, ashamed and alone.... My kids are young enough to recover and enjoy their life with a new daddy.