most of the folks in chat know about all the shit i've been going through. probably tired of it. i get tired of caring about the whole situation because its like beating a dead horse. to summarize it i am being yelled at everyday by mexican dudes. mostly ho and whor. i don't stand on street corners or sleep around. the thing that i fear the most is being shot at or kidnapped one day while i am biking. i have three mental disorders to deal with and need to find a place to live. i don't respond to these people and i am hoping that it will all stop soon. i have been homicidal and suicidal in the past few days. sometimes i feel like leaping off a bridge into interstate traffic.