So I was at the anatomy lab the other day. My old friends and I are in the same lab group so I see them all the time. In order to avoid any encounters with them I work in different desks but the other day I think all of them together came to the desk that I was working in. They were all giggly and laughing. I was stuck between people so I couldn't leave the table. I just waited for them to go away. My heart would beat so fast when I saw them but now I don't get like that. I just feel very very sad. I wish I didn't care this much. I am trying to get closer to other people I know but I was supposed to meet one friend today but she ditched me, and she probably won't make it up to me. So I am alone in the mall, sitting at Starbucks with my thoughts... my stress level is lower these days but I can't seem to get rid of my sadness. I have to fill the void they carved inside of me I guess, otherwise I'll just keep feeling empty.