I ask for trouble sometimes and only have myself to blame. I have been told time after time by my therapists to not expect too much too soon, especially of myself. But I have high expectations of myself. Then I have the added factor of needing to look after myself if I want to get "well" again. But I dont eat well and dont sleep well. I think I am stretching myself too thin. I am doing various group therapies which are challenging and hard work. A lot of the stuff focuses on self awareness and thats something that is not a strength of mine. Its all work and maybe I need to do something which is more fun based? I have a friend who I constantly worry about. She seems to have so many issues and half the time I just dont know how to help or what to do. I have this place which is important to me. I am maybe trying to help/support too many at one time, but that is me. I care about people, especially those who are suffering or in pain and I want to help/support them. But I cant help/support everyone, its just not possible. I dont accept help or ask for help easily. I dont seek support. I accept whats given, when its given, but otherwise, I am here for others. I feel this overwhelming urge to support anyone who is having a hard time. I want their pain to go away. I would happily take it from them if I could. Am I some kind of naive fool, thinking I can help everyone, whereas I can barely help myself? Am I a idiot for constantly trying to support others when I barely have enough strength to support myself? Am I just stretching myself too thinly and sooner or later I am going to pay a price for that?