before you read, you must discount this as a plea. i just need to voice whats in my head. so i' seeing my therapist on tuesday, i havent seen her in 2 weeks. i'm going to go on my own (stephen has been with me every appointment up to this) with everything going on i think there is a strong chance of me braking down inside that room with her. I'm planning things in my head, attempts that i could do on tuesday after that meeting. and all i wanted to say was: I imagined letting go just now, if i was doing what i am half planning, and it was so.. freeing. the bliss of letting go. it seems to easy. probably is, but i just want to know if others feel like this at thoughts? i dont know how close to the edge i am. i just cant go on much more.