I'm really struggling not to self harm at the moment. I have been trying to lose weight for my sisters upcoming wedding and although I follow all the rules and have kept to a very low calorie intake I'm just not losing any weight. I want to cut to punish myself but I have lasted so long not self harming... I have been isolating myself and because of that I have found going out very difficult. As a result I don't have enough meds for the weekend. So things are about to get worse. I know I am doing this to myself and it's my fault but I almost want to cut just to release all this tension. I don't know what to do for the best to survive this weekend.