I havent been here in a while..Things have been so miserable lately though and I didnt have anywhere to vent. Honestly I have no one to really talk to. Im not even sure I can stay online much longer. I havent been able to pay my electric bills and the company said Im going to be on the shut off list in about ten days. So no electric means no internet (because my computer wont run off air!). Also my phone may go as I couldnt pay it either.. Things have been so shitty and I feel like Im going to crumble under it all. First our old car tears up... We still owe almost $1000 on it. We could only get $200 out of it as almost nothing was good on it anymore.. It cost us $400 for another used car - then $35 for breaks, $9 for air conditioner crap, $10 for a spare tire, another $50 in other parts, and $13 for a sticker...... Not to mention the money required to switch the title - taxes, fees, and plate switching. All I got to pay this month was the car insurance and the internet..My mom paid the tv bill for me thankgod.. My electric and telephone costs are now like $334 and I dont have it and wont have it...... In other BAd NEWS my son starts school next week..Kindergarten..First time ever in school..They cancled the oritentation for his grade..So Im expected to send him without even meeting his teacher or knowing where his class room is..Its such a crock of shit.... Oh and on top of the rest of the shit I cant deal with my computer monitor is tore up..ITs dancing around as I write (the display I mean not the actual screen) so sorry for any terrible spelling here...Im just breaking under the pressure...I cant pay the bills...I dont have everything I need for my sons start of school......I cant contain the tears and no one cares...My mom doesnt have time for me...My Grandma doesnt seem to want to hear it...My husband is stupid and doesnt understand my feelings... I cant take much more..I mean the car, the bills, the computer, my sons school....I feel so overwhelmed and I dont know how to handle it.