I just signed the promise in a below post, and I cant stop thinking about self harming I want to cut so desparetly, I dont know why. I havent done it in something like 5 days or something, but I want to do it, Ive been wanting to do it all the time, but Ive been able to put it off, yet that aint gonna work. I feel like a failure for just even thinkign about cutting. I just wanna hurt myself so much. I dont even have a proper reason.. Saying that ive never needed a reason, being alive is enough, i need to feel pain, for punishment, to feel normal, to feel.... I feel so angry when i dont cut, because I cant vent my feelings out... especially not angry, i tend to explode. I am not going to cut.. but i really want to... is my desire not to strong enough.. I dno???