Everyday seems to be a constant struggle.... I struggle not to cry. I struggle to be strong. I struggle to try not to think about him too much. But none of that usually happens. At least once a day every day I have cried over him, I have not been strong, and I think about him constantly... How can I go on like this? I know I am suffering from depression but then this on top of that just makes me feel like there is simply no hope at all for us. Everyone keeps telling me just give it more time, but I feel like I will never see him again. ALL I WANT IS TO SEE HIM. Is that too much to ask? I know it cannot go right back to how it was and I dont want it to. But if we are ever to have some sort of chance again I just feel like at some point he would have to see me! Maybe I am just crazy, sad, depressed, and impatient?? God I just want to somehow someway get through this. I dont know if I can. My worst nightmare is that he is going to come to me one day soon and say he wants to move on or that he has found someone else. I simply could not deal with that. I know I couldnt.