Today is tough. I'm really struggling with everything anymore and never feel happy lately. I have been unemployed for 6 months now after i quit my job because i was unhappy there and was not myself. I have been looking and looking for a new job...interviews, resumes sent out, phone calls...everything i can do, but it seems like no matter what i do, it doesnt help. Its getting more and more depressing as the days go by. I've struggled with depression for years and have been doing fine until recently. I;m so hard on myself...i just feel so alone and like theres nothing good left to live for...whats my purpose. I can help everyone else it seems, but myself. I dont know why i try any more...it just hurts so much. I dont know anymore...all i wanna do is cry all the time anymore...and i snap out over anything and everything lately...i just wish i could wake up from this bad dream...but thats not going to happen. I hate my life right now.....yeah today is hard.