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i am struggling to stay alive,
i am struggling to do the simplest tasks
i am astruggling to breath,
to wake up and get up
i am struggling to talk, keep up a conversation
i am struggling whether or not to take those pills
those magic death pills
i am struggling
I'm so sorry to see you are struggling this much. Please can you tell us what is going on for you? How you are feeling? If you feel too unsafe, please call a crisis hotline, as you're number one priority has to be keeping you safe. If you can't do that yet know you are unable to keep safe, please go to the hospital, where you can receive adequate support and treatment. Let us know how you're doing
There are surely other crisis hotlines you can call? The one you called sounds very unhelpful. Please try and look online or in a phone book for other crisis lines you can call.
You've said yourself, there is a part of you that wants to live. Keep fighting for that part. don't give up on yourself hon, no matter how difficult it seems. Are there any distraction techniques that work when you feel bad? Writing is good. How about having a bath and reading a book, or watching a DVD? And keep writing here.
Tomorrow please tell your doc just how bad you are feeling, you deserve support, but the only way you can receive the support you need is if the professionals around you know the full story.
hi dying inside, hope you got on ok with your doc yesterday and that he could offer you some support. maybe hospital is an option at this point if only to keep you safe until your emotions settle down to a point you have more control.
i am sure we would all like to know how you got on :hug: