Struggling not to take those pills, not to overdose... even though i want it so bad right now. the numbness i felt a few days ago has slowly given place to feelings of hopelessness, worthlessness, to an urge of ending it all right now, today, NOW. my mom tries to make me snap out of it, to get over it, to have the will and the strenght to live and to do something with my life. but i cant. i stay in bed all day. and im tired of it but dont have the energy or the will to do anything else. an overdose is all i can think about, all i want.