stuck in a repid sicle of the present time

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by Summer.Rain, Nov 30, 2008.

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  1. Summer.Rain

    Summer.Rain Well-Known Member

    Every morning i wake up, eat, watching some tv, smoke some cigaretes
    maybe some computer\internet, and then sleep.
    every day is the same, again and again, no changes.
    What can one feel when he see how he stuck in such sicle of time?
    this loop with no start or end, when i lost the feeling of time yet im counting seconds?

    I can make time go faster, knowing that it dosnt effect me in any way
    becouse its a sicle and it dosnt matter how fast it goes.
    No changes, for month after month. I have the fealing that it will last forever
    untill i will die, or kill myself, this is the only escape.

    I tryed to brake out of this sicle, to find a job, but failed.
    I tryed to find new hobbys, also failed.
    I feel no need in anything, i feel like im dead, and im stuck in this sicle of life
    the only way out of it is to die, i must die, this is the only way out!
     
  2. Aaron

    Aaron Well-Known Member

    That is exactly how i feel too.
     
  3. roo_army

    roo_army Member

    This is how I feel too.

    I guess the best way is to break the cycle. Find something you like and do it.
    For me at the moment it is watching arrested development and listening to jazz.
     
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