I'm new to all of this but I don't think it can hurt. I'm 30, female and newly married. My husband and I are constantly fighting. He hates that I binge drink 2 x a week and I hate that he is so self obsessed (re body building). I'm willing to make changes and have treatment starting this week. However he isn't. We fight daily about the smallest of things to the largest. During a dinner party we hosted he called me 'disgusting' because I was bloated. It ruined my entire outlook and I spirralled out of control and drank excessively. He refuses to see that his bullying effects me instantaneously. We are going to try work on it and focus on ourselves for the next few months. I'm genuinely concerned. I can not face a divorce, losing my dogs, the humiliation, the starting over. Moreso, I don't want to lose him. I'm thoroughly depressed and have been suicide since I was 13. Puberty was cruel to me. I have a lot of friends and family but I geniuinely don't want to talk about it to them. I'd consider killing myself before losing my life I built.