OK so my life is on standstill...and it has been since leaving school. I just dont understand how to get what other people have. I cannot find a job (and unsure what to do), I cannot find a girlfriend(and never had one) I have no friends and never have (except one who is a user that I recently decided to completely ignore - because hes an asshole user), I have no transport of my own, I have no one to talk to in the day, or night including weekends, I still live with parents(Who piss me off on a daily basis and never go anywhere, and never go on holiday or do anything remotely fun).. and the worst of all is i dont know how to get any of these things, or change what i need to change.. ...and no one including the tonnes of doctors, therapists, etc that ive seen over the years has ever been able to give me advice or help me!!?!. I think that goes down to them beinga bunch of useless ****s who couldn't organise a piss-up in a brewery but still, I dont know how to help myself and no one knows how to help me. My life has been like this for years. I came from intense fucked up bullying all my life up until 16..joined college and got grades that I worked hard for but got me nowhere... now im stuck unable to move on with life. Everyday is exactly the same and I just lay about the house watching the world go by out the window or playing games, or stuck on the computer all day and night. Im wasting my life away and have had deep dark phases of depression that last months..and even when I shift them and i feel really good...they come washing back as I realise it doesnt matter how good i feel nothing in my life ever changes, and the fact that I know I have to go out and change things for myself, but DON'T KNOW HOW TO then that just adds to extreme frustration. I do not want to kill myself, because it is unwise an never the answer.. I think you are simply reborn into another body if you do, and you do not learn what you came here to learn or expereince. There must be a first step forward..but what?? ive asked this many times to myself and other people and no one has the answer.... It seems if you font know anyone then your FUCKED and alone forever.. its about who you know and if you know no one then your fucked???? what Should I do ??? There is no pone going back to college because the job situation is bullshit, and i already have qualifications that could get me a job..and if i even did get a job the chances that it will be a dead end job are about 99%. Thats the last things I want. I'm 21, 22 later this month and i just cant take this any more. the best advice someone can give me is "join a group" oh yeah cos thats gonna sort my life out. I feel like I will be miserable and a loner my entire life.