Stuck

Discussion in 'Strategies for Success' started by bec1216, Jun 13, 2016.

  1. bec1216

    bec1216 Active Member

    I've found that my depression is the worst on days when I don't keep busy. But now that I'm out of school, I'm struggling to find ways to occupy my time. I've been applying for jobs for a few months now, with no luck. I've been researching different volunteer opportunities in my community relating to animals (I'm a huge animal lover) but each one I find requires that I be an older age/ have more experience. Even when I do find a volunteer opportunity that I'm eligible for, my parents won't let me go because they A) refuse to drive me and B) do not want me to drive myself. I've tried to explain to them that this is something very important to me but they refuse to listen. I hang out with friends occasionally but I only have two so when they're both busy, it leaves me feeling stuck.

    I want so badly to not only pursue, but achieve happiness in my life. I want to busy myself so that every day I am working towards a better life and a better mental state. But despite my efforts, I still have so many days where I have nothing to do but sit and stare at the wall. It's on those days that I feel most depressed. Those are the days where I come to the conclusion that I'm going nowhere in life. Maybe I need to be more patient and have faith that opportunities will eventually come my way, but that's much easier said than done. I'm so young, I feel I shouldn't be struggling so much just to get through each day. Why Is it so difficult for me to find things that make me happy?

    I yearn for happiness. My relationship with happiness is like a broke addict's relationship with drugs; we want so badly the things we can't have. I just don't want to be so miserable while I'm young. I fear that when I'm thirty I'll look back and realize that I don't have a single happy memory from my teenage years. I want to go on adventures, form everlasting relationships, help make a difference in my community, watch sunsets, meet new people, explore unknown places, laugh until I cry, stay up all night, get drunk, work with animals, fall in love. As cliché as it sounds, I want to live life to the fullest while I'm young. Yet here I sit, alone, on my computer, typing out a long rant that nobody will want to read, hoping that tomorrow is better but thinking that it probably won't be.
     
  2. SillyOldBear

    SillyOldBear Teddy Bear Fanatic Staff Member Safety & Support

    I remember being 18. Remembering that far back is actually an amazing feat! :) I hated to wait. Wanted everything right now now right. It was hard to think about the years ahead of me. Year that would provide plenty of time for adventures and joy.

    Let me toss out a few ideas to consider for filling your time.
    1) Do some studying about those animals you love. Then you will be that much more prepared when you are able to volunteer. You will be taking active steps towards that goal.
    2) Research places you might want to travel to. See the world from your computer now and make plans to see it for real later.
    3) Do you have access to public transit, or a bicycle. Either could take you to many different places.
    4) Look around your neighborhood. Is the a neighbor who could use your help. A church or hospital where you can volunteer. Is there trash all over the streets that you could clean up to make the environment better.

    Set you imagination to work and I know you will find more then enough to keep you going this summer.
     
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  3. bec1216

    bec1216 Active Member

    Those are some great suggestions, thank you!
     
  4. silis

    silis Active Member

    blegh, i cant even get myself to leave the house at all. quit my previous job because i couldnt handle all the horrible people i had to deal with. i pretty much fail at absolutely everything. i am nothing more than an annoying burden.