I hesitated so much about making this thread. I don't even know if someone will reply anyway. I feel so bad right now, i feel like grabbing a rope and hang myself. I hate my life, i hate everything. All of my friends have gone and moved out, they all have better lives and have met better people but not me, even when i tried to achieve all that, i was kicked back here to deal with this misery. Maybe i dont have real problems like tons of people do but i don't care, this is something inside of me. I feel so alone, i feel no one likes me, i don't know why, i'm always nice and i have a lot of dreams but i'm so pathetic that i can't find a way to achieve them. I'm always so scared so closed inside of me, however when i'm around people i'm always trying to just chill and be nice and i don't know. My two best friends moved to a city 4 hours away from here, a huge city and i'm so amazed at how their life changed, just so awesome, so peachy. But not me, even though i tried but i don't have what it takes. This has gone on for 3 years now and i'm now 18. I feel i'll get older and i'll keep stuck in this situation, i'll keep stuck in loneliness and stuck in misery. I'm so sick, so tired of all of this. I even feel bad for feeling sorry for myself, if that makes any sense. I don't want to go on like this, i don't want to keep getting older and still be like this. No one likes me and nothing for me seems to work out, i keep getting slapped in my face.