This is the only forum I can directly address my suicidal feelings. Yes my feeling of hopelessness has grown. I tried to increase my personal contacts on a different forum. Felt ignored and dismissed. One of my triggers is the feeling of being ignored makes me feel hopeless and suicidal. Found that even in the relative safety of the internet I can get this feeling. I know I need to break out of my isolation but I run the risk of triggering suicidal feelings. A catch 22 situation stay in my shell and get more and more depressed or else try to break out and get hurt, depressed, and suicidal. Either way my suicidal feelings increase. Why should I take chances just drift away to oblivion?