I feel stuck. I thought I was moving forward. But the last week has been very difficult. Negative coping, stupid behaviors etc. I would like to be honest with my T, but I fear the consequences of doing so. How can we trust those who are obliged by their standard of care to do whats "right" for the client? If I say - yes, I have sui thoughts - the next question is do I have a method. If I say well I really don't wish to die but I can't cope. And yes I have two methods - then what? There's more pressures re work and some other things that have arisen. It just feels too much. How can I get through this inability to cope? I mean seriously, the smallest of things (I logically know they are silly) but they send me reeling. This is not how I used to be at all. I ache so much for my soulmate. I mean, physically, ache. I'm not sure how to cope right now. Have definitely gone backwards. Trying so hard to keep busy and keep distracted with things that don't cause me anxiety & stress. I'm feeling now at times like I give up. Thats it - done. Like, whats the point? I don't want to feel this way, think this way. But I do, I am. I want out. So, what do I do?