Feeling suicidal, but scared to ask for help from my friends. I don't want to weigh anyone down, but I keep feeling like someone else should keep all of my pills and my shaving razor, and I keep wanting to tell someone, or everyone I know how I keep feeling when I'm alone. I'm paranoid that in the end its because I'm lonely and that I want attention, and that makes me hate myself even more for being so pathetic and manipulative. I see so many great and supportive people on a regular basis. How could I do this to them. Why do I still feel this way, even with the meds and the therapy and the loving people in my life? What if this feeling keeps coming back until the day I die?