I flashed a girl my dick. That might not seem too stupid. It was in a private place. But it is stupid if you have the most amazing girlfriend, and that's nit the girl you flashed too. The girl I flashed to is called Maria, she says she loves me. She said that after I was celebrating my charity walk finish, and I had three beers...well, my drinks were spiked, but still. Of course, I love Taylor, deeply, more than anything. She's all I've got left. So I had to pretend that I loved Maria back, so I said 'I love you too but I can't be with you, I love Taylor more". She's suicidal too, and I start to feel really guilty, and my mind's confused by the alcohol. So I flash her it, just because she needed to feel special. There was no touching involved, no making out, just that... But almost immediately I panic. I've betrayed Taylor's trust. I tell Maria this has all been a big mistake, and she agrees. I tell Taylor what happened almost immediately, I don't want to hide anything from her. If I never told her, she would have never known. But I cant lie to her. But, I got no response. I hate myself more than ever now. My relationship, the perfect relationship, could be over. I've cut myself deeply seven times, and an breaking down in tears. I am scum, and I absolutely hate myself. I want to die. Why did I do that fucking flash?!