I'm not quite sure where to start with this, but I'll go for it.. I have a history of self-harm, as a lot of the members here do..it's nothing new to me, but I have worked to try and avoid that as often as possible. Anyway, it has been a while since I self-harmed the way I normally do, but I have no managed to find something else. I am normally a cutter but I guess that just became something that annoyed me more than relieved anything. So yesterday I was doing some exercises and Tae Kwon Do stuff, and ended up hitting my arm on my leg..it hurt, but I didn't think much of it. Later, I got frustrated with myself and remembered the pain from before so decided to do it several more times. Now I am just a little concerned that I may have done some damage. I was sent home from work today..my final day of training and they made me leave because of my arm. It is heavily bruised and painful, but I did not intend to go to the doctor until work told me I must have a doctor's note before I can return to work. Now I'm just paranoid about what they might think at the hospital. :/ I don't expect sympathy from anyone as I did it to myself..I just enjoy the pain, I guess but I didn't want it to effect my work in the way that it has. I also think that my partner does not believe what happened and she seems upset with me. Sorry, I don't think this makes much sense..just trying to talk..I dunno.