I want to kill myself this second, however I can not do so. I made a idiotic promise to my mother that I wouldn't and try to keep ever promise I make. I didn't even mean to ether, she caught me off guard. Any ideas how I can get out of it? I would just off myself in other circumstances, however said promise being made to my mother, I feel an inexplicable obligation to keep it. Side note: Don't leave any sympathetic comments tell me not to try, my life makes no difference and never will. 1 out of 6,000,000,000+ people doesn't matter.