edit: trigger?? Fuck this, fuck it. Why shouldn't I cut? One week cut free and what the hell have I got to show for it?! I've screwed up everything this week, everything. And yet I haven't cut. Well screw it, I need it, why the hell shouldn't I? Brand new blades. At least they'll do some damage. Hitting a vein isn't that big a deal anyways. Who knows, maybe I'll even manage to hit an artery, and bye bye world. I should be so lucky. There's going to be blood tonight, I only hope there's enough. Damn it! Why is everything so fucking SHIT?!! No reply needed, this is just a pathetic rant.