Stupid, stupid me.

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by Matt93, Mar 21, 2011.

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  1. Matt93

    Matt93 Well-Known Member

    I just lost my best friend, through my own stupid choices. I'd rather be dead than be without her. S'all I got to say. Dunno what else I can say.
  2. Sadeyes

    Sadeyes Staff Alumni

    How sad, Matt...what happened? And is there any way to repair the relationship?
  3. Matt93

    Matt93 Well-Known Member

    Not a hope in hell in repairing it.

    It's fine, I deserve it. I forgave some friends that another friend won't forgive. I re-friended them. She deserted me. It's cool, guess I'm the one in the wrong.

    She just doesn't understand how I genuinely feel about her :/ I'm alone. Massively.
  4. dazzle11215

    dazzle11215 Staff Alumni

    it's your choice to forgive these other people. i think it shows how mature you are. i think your friend who dumped you is being childish. i'm sure that doesn't take away the pain you are feeling, just a reality check. maybe she will come around in her thinking. not much you can do, just know you did the right thing.
  5. total eclipse

    total eclipse SF Friend Staff Alumni

    sorry your friend is not acting like one you have the right to forgive who ever you please she may grow up some day until then try to find a friend that does not play these games okay hugs
  6. Matt93

    Matt93 Well-Known Member

    Thanks Total and Dazzle.
    I just... I can't take it without her.

    I know I'm the one being more mature about it, but yeah. I don't really know what to say :/
  7. Stranger1

    Stranger1 Forum Buddy & Antiquities Friend

    Hey Matt, Give her some time.. I'm sure she misses your friendship as much as you do..Everyone hurts the ones they love time to time..Give her some time and then try and talk to her..
  8. chantal

    chantal Member

    We are sorry about what happened to you and to your friend Matt.
    Just keep holding on. It will still pass.

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  9. Matt93

    Matt93 Well-Known Member

    I don't believe she'll come round. I deserve the pain of the loss.
  10. M4tt

    M4tt New Member

    Matt93 no one deserve to be in pain but it is part of life. if we did not feel pain we could not feel joy. im not feeling well myself but I know I will feel better one day. just know that your the one being a true friend... bravo!
  11. Viro

    Viro Well-Known Member

    If she doesn't know how you feel, it might make you feel better to let her know, if she's going to reject you anyway.

    At least, that's the logic I'm operating under right now...
  12. n'cest pas

    n'cest pas Member

    For now just stay quiet. Let her think things over. Accept that she wants some space and wait. You can respect her decision, without blaming yourself.

    Be patient. If, in three or four weeks time you still have not heard from her. Contact her then with some lighthearted friendly talk and see what happens.

    In the mean time try to be kinder to yourself. Everyone has the right to make decisions based on what they feel is fair and correct.
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