Can't even do aerobics with an exercise dvd in the privacy of my own room with door closed and curtains shut. I fear that people can see me even through the curtains. I have trouble remembering what I have to do- the exercises and moves etc. I feel so STUPID, FOOLISH AND DISGUSTING doing some of the movements. My brain tells me arm waving is utterly useless and pathetic rubbish. Just like me. I am badly overweight. I've lost some but my doctor and I know there's lots more to be done. I try to mix up my own routines using guides with my exercise equipment and Youtube videos, but... it's not guaranteed to do what I need. The DVDs can do that for me. But as soon as I go to start... I sink and crawl away, unable to try. Happens with lots of things in life. But why does this happen???