stupid *trigger*

Discussion in 'Self Harm & Substance Abuse' started by blub, Dec 7, 2006.

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  1. blub

    blub Guest

    I feel so awfull, cant stop shaking
    I really wanted to end it
    Had enough of feeling like this
    Knowing my dreams will never come through
    Except one... and that was suicide
    So I went to the bathroom
    Took a shower, where I usually cut
    I always cut my legs, but now
    I needed a vein, ofcourse the wrist
    cutted deeper and deeper
    And than I realised what I was doing
    The knife falls out of my hand
    And I cried a long time under the shower
    I couldnt do this, to my family, my friends
    And now the stupid me has this cut
    on my fucking arm, I never can hide this one
    On the legs they are easy to hide
    Oh its so deep, it will leave an ugly scar
    I dont want someone to see this
    What have I done...

  2. Malcontent

    Malcontent Staff Alumni

    Aww hun :sad: :hug:

    I've done similar things so many times, you're not stupid. I'm so glad you stopped before you went too far :hug:

    Are you ok physically? Has it stopped bleeding? Wish I could help more hun.

    Take care of yourself, pm me if you need to talk to someone :hug:
  3. ~CazzaAngel~

    ~CazzaAngel~ Staff Alumni

    Awww hun :hug: :hug: I am so sorry you are really struggling now...I kinda am too...try and calm down...everything is ok, was a mistake...but you will get through this hun... I am here for you... and so are Ester, Vikki, Matt and everyone else. We would miss you if you were gone... you are a great person, you are just hurting right now. You will be ok, we will get through this together. Stay with us, we love you hun! :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: ...WE ARE HERE HUN...

    With all my love,
  4. kindtosnails

    kindtosnails Staff Alumni

    Aww blub hun :hug:

    You're not stupid, try and calm yourself down because its going to be ok, ok? Has it stopped bleeding? Hope youre ok physically. :hug: If you want to talk, I'm here...

    :hug: Wish there was something more useful I could say.. :sad:
  5. Terry

    Terry Antiquities Friend Staff Alumni

    Ditto Blue :sad:

    Blub hun what triggered this episode? :hug: :hug: :hug:
  6. Marshmallow

    Marshmallow Staff Alumni

    awwww blubbers :sad:

    Im allways here for ya hun, i care about you alot and you've helped me so much and i just want you to be safe. I hope your doing okay physchially and that its all stopped bleeding, if not please get it looked at.

    Im allways here if you wanna talk, remember that :hug:

    Love ya

    Vik x
  7. blub

    blub Guest

    I want to thank everyone for the nice words :hug:
    I'll be ok.
  8. Sa Palomera

    Sa Palomera Well-Known Member

    you know I'm here for ya sweetie :arms: :hug: :arms:
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