Me. My actions and in actions. My thoughts and my (in)abilities. Longing for what will never again be. Attempts at "stuff" and failing miserably. Lack of intent and motivation for important things. A miserable sod alone because of herself. Enabling past events to still have a hold on me. Not knowing what to do, what I want, where to go or where I belong. Homeless, soulless and stupid beyond belief.