OK, I am really struggling right now. I have made the provisions to cut later. But I am trying to hold out. I feel so anxious at the moment. I am thinking of opening some wine see if that will help me chill out a little. My heart is going so fast also. I have some lorazepam upstairs but I really don't want to take one. X-Factor is starting in a few mins so will have that to occupy me at least. I don't even know what is causing me to feel like this. It's horrible. I feel so low all the time. At least before I could attribute my feelings to things that were going on in my life. Now I just don't know. I think that's why I am more anxious. I asked my GP if there could be a link between polycystic ovaraian syndrome and depression and he said it is something they had not considered before and he thinks that it could be a factor. I hate not knowing.