Wow, haven't been on here in a while. I've also never posted one of these but I'm just so lost right now. I feel like I'm caught up in so many bad habits that I just can't seem to let go of. Eating disorders, cutting... It just never ends. I just got out of inpatient two weeks ago and I thought it helped but now I'm just a trainwreck all over again. My mood just goes so up and down, and when it goes down there's just nothing I can do to stop myself from purging, or stop myself from cutting. I just don't know what's wrong with me. How did I get caught up in all this and why the hell can't I stop?? Ugh I almost ended it a little before I went in. I just wish I had. I can't keep living like this. I feel so lost and so freaking alone.