Ok, So how does it happen that you can go from feling stable, down but stable, to shaking, despair, hopeless in the space of a phonecall - and all that was was a friend coming round to see me? WTF? I was feeling today will be OK now I just want it to end. I don't understand. Do I just fool myself that things feel OK - Is it because I will have to pretend all is OK for my friend? Confusion reigns.... Just had time to reach out..