As far back as I can remember my sugar intake has been almost inhuman. Sugar rushes have fuelled entire days activities. At worst I'd wake up and eat the biggest pack of whatever my current sugar-laced obsession is, same again for lunch and eat half a meal followed by chocolate and another bag of sweets for dinner. As well as 4-6 teaspoons in my 7-10 cups of coffee a day and a few cans of fizzy drink or, if I've got the money, Red Bulls. Been weaning myself off for a while, mostly shaking and lacking in co-ordination in the process. As well as struggling for energy obviously. Christmas was scary by mere fact of what I managed to eat sugar wise but I'd cut down in the weeks beforehand and since. I am prone to binging and purging too. I'm not diabetic, I get checked quite regularly, but I get heart palpitations and have a raging tacchycardia, my resting heart rate can rise to 120-130bpm. It can also drop to 60. I have many symptoms of a hyper-glycemic but "clean blood." I have a weed problem too, for as long as I can remember. Weed gives people "the munchies" I know but I can remember my craving for sugar started before the age of 10 and has been ritualistic since then. Weed has only been a bona-fide "problem" since I resigned myself to remaining thoroughly wasted as often as I can help it. That was nearly 3 years ago. Before then I gave my self 3 days off weed a week, whereby I'd either drink to a stupor for entire weekends or shift varying quantities of different 'phets. Still, a change is as good as a rest eh? This is the first serious attempt I'm making at cutting down sugar in 18 years probably and, I know it is only "sweets, chocolates and fizzy pop" but it fucking hurts like hell sometimes. I've also never really given it a lot of thought until the past 6 months. I was the 12 year old who walked around school with the bottle of vodka in his kit bag and his mums prescription pills in his inside pocket. Narcotics have fuelled me forever, or it feels like. "A few too many sweets" has never really bothered me before. Does anybody know what I mean?