Ive been having thoughts of getting some pills since last night and just ending it all. I could easily go if I wanted to today. Everything is just getting overwhelming to me. Even having to go out and see other people. Im getting tired of my life since all I do is take up space. It hurts on the inside just to wake up and live through everyday like I have been. With the fleeting numbness and depression. And the poverty. I feel my future is just hopelesss and I'll never be what I want to be in this lifetime. Like I should just go before my time is up. Im getting tired of it all and having to go through it everyday. Just having to put on my smiling face when really im wrecked on the inside.Totally wrecked...