I have bipolar II and borderline personality disorder. I've been ill for more than 10 years now and I started taking meds a little less than 5 years ago. I'm sick of it! I stopped going to school because I couldn't concentrate enough to be able to study; I can't do well in my karate club because of the meds I take; I feel guilty for just existing because I feel like a burden to others and I fear that I can't be a good wife or mother in future. I've been suicidal a lot and I've attempted suicide half a dozen times so far. I feel very much like trying it again tonight after my parents have gone to bed. I'm so tired of this roller coaster ride called life.