hey guys im a new member here, and i registered cuz i have no where else to turn. ive been suffering from depression since like 2001 or something, and im currently in treatment with meds and weekly therapy for a number of diorders. i believe ive been having these thoughts of death and the afterlife and ending it all since my early teen years. i can never remember a time when and if ive ever been happy, even as a child. im 22 now and ive had ENOUGH!!!!!!!!!! and just recently, a situation came up where im gonna lose my dad. not in death, but was wrongly accused for doing something he did not do. so the cops called the house and had him arrested! how do you think someone, already in a real mental crisis and battling their own problems and already feeling suicidal, would react to this? :ohmy::ohmy::ohmy::ohmy::ohmy: i need immediate advice asap!!!!!!! ive called the hotline before, but i vowed never to do that again because they got the wrong asumption that i tried to kill myself then and there, when i really just wanted to vent it out! IS THAT JUSTICE???????? please guys and girls, i need ur help so severely bad. i think im really about to something and its not gonna be pretty. name here is kris.......please leave me a personal email [email protected]