I have no hope for the future. I have paranoid schizpohrenia and asperger syndrome , no friends, no girlfriends, nothing. I tried to end it a few days ago <Mod Edit: Methods> but my family came and got me admitted to psychward. Now I am at my home again and the suicidal feelings are back again. I weel something drawing me to the window so I can end it. I pray for christs sake 2-3 hours each day and listen to music but cant find relief. I am / feeling hopeless I cant live without Jesus/God in my life. I dont want any more. I am tired. I want to rest. I am soon 27 years old, Ive had enough. I dont have time to wait for the endtimes either. I dont know if I have the courage to end it like this way but I hope I can take the final step. No more no more.