Alot of people who have talked to me about suicide usually have some typical problem that can easily be solved. It has to do with self-loathing and looking inside like 'Im 30 years old and not married, dont have a good job, and never been laid' when something like that can easily be fixed. My suicidal thoughts are persistent and strong, and stem from a desire for the pain ive been living with so long to end. Its just like any other lasting pain that grow incessant and someone will do anything for relief. I suffer with a severe mental health problem. Recently went to the ER to have my meds tweaked, but didnt really do much good. Also I live with a chronic pain problem that I take methadone for. So I just really feel like getting the job done. Ive dealt with suicidal thoughts since my diagnosis. And who's to say this is something thats genetic? I just feel like atm ive dealt with an overwheming situation in which i dont have the coping skills to deal with. Im not getting adequate help to curb the suicidal thoughts. They run through my mind like a rollercoaster. Desperation sucks.