I am simply tired of wannabe "gangstas" picking on me, and giving out harsh comments like "Japan sucks" and "Pikachu, right white boy?" they are one of the reasons I have as strong of a distaste of America as I do, and to make matters worse, my Spanish teacher is too lazy to give them the proper consequences, and it only ends up hurting me more in the end... When I first registered 3 years ago, I was in 8th grade for those who remember, but and if anything, it has only gotten worse to the point where suicide is possibly the only option left for me, everyone hates me, they are either afraid of me, or they hate me in another way like I have mentioned about those wannabe gangsters, it is one of the biggest problems with America, most people who have adapted to the so called "American culture" closes their minds completely on any other country that is not them, and that is rather disappointing, because there are so many great cultures to explore, and I am simply sick of living, I do not belong here on Earth, I belong in the cemetery buried six feet under the ground, my father should of thought long and hard before making that horrible decision to bring me here, he is such a fool to bring me here to suffer; were his four other children that preceded me not enough? He made the worst decision he will probably never regret because he will never be transformed into myself for a day, he would for sure regret bringing me to suffer in this world of hate, hate is written everywhere, especially in religious writings that only release hatred towards anyone who is not them. The only purpose of those stone age beliefs were to spread fear, and it is still doing that today, and that is why people here are not willing to understand me, but rather negatively judge me with haste, because I do not follow their fear-inducing myths. I wish I was never born to live though nearly two decades of pure hatred from everyone, my dad should of stopped bringing suffering souls to earth after the fourth one came around. I just belong in the cemetery, I do not belong in this fear controlled hell. This is not Earth, in fact, this is Hell in Earth's disguise, this is Hell, but no one can tell, this is a place full of lost, suffering souls being tortured with hatred from evil itself, and self-rightous lost souls who have wasted their lives with excessive pride.