Since my attempt 2 years ago, i been living. But i am not really sure i am still suicidal or not. After my attempt there are times when i think about it, but just thinking, no real action. Right now i don't have any suicide thought and my depression is not as servere, but i don't really mind dying right now and wouldn't mind risking my life for some situations. I still have depression - no energy, no motivation, no interest, its almost like i am dead in a different way. Did i killed myself without knowing it?