Others, including me, understand, at least in part, what you are going through, even though each of our experiences can feel completely unique. Unfortunately, I had to get back on 2/2 of the opiod meds I have to take. I hate it & the pain is still there, just a little easier to deal with, and nights--ugh--nights are hard, emotionally & physically. I'm not exactly a ray of sunshine right now & am battling periods of hopelessness in my own life, but I know that as much as I'd prefer no one else have to deal with debilitating chronic pain, I do find some peace in knowing that there are others out there who can at least understand my physical pain & are there, virtually, to help pull me thru. I hope you get some comfort & rest.