Discussion in 'Midnight Owl' started by Bagpuss18, Jul 10, 2008.

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  1. Bagpuss18

    Bagpuss18 Well-Known Member

    I want to die

    ive never felt this bad before

    i feel REALLY unsafe

    anyone know any online counselling type thing? ive googled but am so hysterically distressed that i cant search properly.

    help me help me

    i dont think i want to die, but head has gone mad. not in control of self

    die die die die die

    help help help

    please help me




    x x x x
  2. Insignificant

    Insignificant Account Closed

    what's going on that has led you to all this?

    :please: stay safe
  3. Anju

    Anju Well-Known Member

    :hug: does it have to be an online thing? Why not try calling the Samaritans, they've helped me through the night more times than I care to remember :/

    If you need someone to talk to I'm here, please stay safe :sad:
  4. Bagpuss18

    Bagpuss18 Well-Known Member

    just slowly got more and more down as the night went in and now im hysterical and got drs in morning but cant hang on that long

    its so bad its so bad its so bad

    mum died when i was 9 (now 18) really need her and im scared and in pain and im freaking out


    x x x x
  5. Bagpuss18

    Bagpuss18 Well-Known Member

    cant phone - phobic
    uncle wrks 4 samaritans

    trying to calm down with music

  6. Insignificant

    Insignificant Account Closed

    i am familiar with the pain you're going through. i know what it's like to want your mom but she's not there. it's tough, but i believe with all my heart you can get through it. just keep talkin' here, and then talk some more after that. i'm tellin' you now it will make the difference.

    :please: :please: take care and stay safe
  7. Bagpuss18

    Bagpuss18 Well-Known Member

    the pain is so bad

    i was only a little girl

    i need help

    i dont want to feel this way anymore
  8. Anju

    Anju Well-Known Member

    I can only imagine the pain you're going through right now :sad:

    But please, just hold on till the morning. As Insignificant said, keep talking here, you can get through this night :hug: please take care
  9. Bagpuss18

    Bagpuss18 Well-Known Member

    calming down now

    gotta hang on till 11am

    i can do this

    i CAN

    its 9hours - what's nine hours when you've been this way for nine years

    can do it
    can do it
    can do it
    can do it
  10. Anju

    Anju Well-Known Member

    That's the spirit! You CAN do this! Keep telling yourself that and you will
  11. innocencexisxlove

    innocencexisxlove Well-Known Member

    :hug: mj i know you can do it honey...

    keep up the great work!!!!!
  12. Broken_Heart

    Broken_Heart Active Member

    mj, how are you?
  13. Insignificant

    Insignificant Account Closed

    i'm so proud of seeing you being so positive. that is totally awesome. you've done great. i know you'll make it til your appointment. you've got what it takes to make it.

    :please: continue to take care and stay safe
  14. Bagpuss18

    Bagpuss18 Well-Known Member

    im ok you guys

    thanks loads for your support last night

    i kind of get random like suicide attacks , like panic attacks - completely random, no obvious triggers, and im totally out of control of myself and my stupid thick fat head.

    anyone else get this problem?
  15. fromthatshow

    fromthatshow Staff Alumni SF Supporter

    I always feel suicidal. But sometimes it worses with no obvious triggers. I usually can never tell what's triggering anything.
  16. aki

    aki Well-Known Member

    great title....very eye catching :laugh:
  17. Bagpuss18

    Bagpuss18 Well-Known Member

    My dr says that he cant do anything about my eating disorder until im drastically underweight.... He says my suicide attemots aren't his problem... Aren't they?

    I'll explain more on ED forum.

    Thank you so much for being here for me guys. I wouldnt be alive without you.

    See you on ED forum then.



    x x x x
  18. Anju

    Anju Well-Known Member

    Wth? Suicide attempts HAVE to be his problem, and he can't help till you're drastically underweight? That's messed up :sad:

    Maybe you should see a different doctor =/
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