I close my hot stained eyes, and breathe softly with a slight sigh; and shudder with thought, of the memories distant past... hiding within dark webs of lies, all I really want... is just to die; a battle long fought, but the years of toil, sure did go fast. Hearken closely to this reminiscent tale... a chapter from the days of youth; I am like a lone black bear, wandering aimlessly on this cold frigid night. I drink deeply from this evil silver grail... the cup of suffering, given to the uncooth; Yearning wearily for my warm toasty lair; the air was still and the stars crisp and bright. From the hand of fools; I was tied to the altar like a stinking little rat; raped of my child-like innocence; by those I trusted the most... Black fiery candles; glistening eerily of it's sweating human fat; oily smoke... thick and so dense, dimly cast shadows that had the appearance of ghosts. The marble table was cold; and the ropes were stretched tight; Muffled screams echoed against the blood stained walls of my foe.. Made from the same mold, my parents beat me with delight; With a crack of the leather whip... bloody lashes covered from head to toe. Violent dreams... echoes in the mind of my little hell; Unloved and unwanted; I was never meant to be born... I kept this little secret; swearing an oath to never to tell; My soul was scarred; and I was the object of everyone's scorn. As the long years went by... my fear turned into blinding violent rage... Those who tormented me were cursed one by one.... I weep with a suicidal cry... imprisoned with despair in this fragile fleshly cage; With a smile; soon I'll be set free... by the bullet from this deadly sweet gun.