Why do I keep having these suicidal thoughts all the time? I get in a great mood, but still think about ending it. It's like if I end it, all the pain would stop, and I would not have to worry anymore. I don't want to tell my family because they will trip out and probably have me admitted again. That doesn't help anyway, sending someone to psych ward for suicidal thoughts. If I come out with it, I will probably loose my job, my friends (who cares anyway), and it will be a snowball effect from there. I work 7 days a week and 12 hours a day.