Haven't been here in a while. But yesterday was the highest it's ever been for me. I was literally minutes away from acting on it. I've been through the worst rough patch these past months. Recently I'e developed the worst dental pain, but I can land a job so I can't do anything about it. I don't have the money. I was laying in my bed sobbing terribly because I'm afraid of the worst happening like dying, being poor, or losing my teeth. I'm already insecure and scared of everything. I just want to die right now, to put myself at peace, and to relieve the suffering.