Does anyone else find suicidal thoughts comforting? If I find myself in a bad mood or having a rough day I default to suicidal thoughts. It's always comforting for me to some extent. The thought is typically a <edit mod total eclipse method>and is quite graphic. The thought replays in my mind over and over again. Some days I "die" in my head over 100 times. I've been a threat to myself for at least 6 months. I have attempted once and spent time on suicide watch twice. I'm not sure what's going to give first; Snapping out of my debilitating depression or following through with one final act. At this point I don't care which happens to me. Regards, A man who thought he escaped these feelings.