ive been reading alot of forums, looking for a advice and answers and trying to understand if how im feeling about life is normal the more i read the more i it makes me sad, i havn't read anything even remotely useful or even helpful.
Im in a position, where im unhappy and don't really enjoy been alive, their is nothing i'm looking forward to, all the advice out their seems to be just change the way you think and change the aspects of your life you don't like. which just doesn't cut it, its not like i look around thinking god everyones lifes are so good but mine, everyone's lifes seems just as boring and meh as mine, they just seem better at dealing with it then me.
lets face it most people spend about 50% of there time doing stuff they don't want to do, another 3rd sleeping, and you get about 20% time to do what you want, and only then if you can afford it and if its possible an if their is actually anything you want to do.
No where in any of the advice i have read does it tell you how to deal this fact, no one talks about it, and the more i read and look into to counciling , anti depressants.... the more it just seems to be about trying to learn to lie to your self to avoid the fact that for most people maybe LIFE IS JUST A BIT SHIT and im not feeling this way because their is something wrong with me mentally, or im in some way chemically unbalanced.
Maybe i'd be happy if i learned to trick myself that life is better than it is, or found some hope in believing in some religion or other who tell you don't worry if your life's shit becuase if your good you will go to heaven, but i don't i just think thats more ways of lieing to yourself to deal with the fact life isnt great.
Maybe the only think i need to work out is do I want to stay alive going through the motions just becuase it is better then not existing at all?
im sorry for the nature of this post, i just needed to write this down somehwere