Apman,
"Ceasing to exist" sounds so relieving, un- burdening and easier than the mountain of struggles that get bigger, or simply roll back on to us. I am speaking for myself. I am also new to this. I do not know if I am doing this correctly, all I know is there are people quietly suffering, as I am. I suspect it is easier to egress, than to stay, but who would I have to talk to? I have no family, permanently disabled, in part to my previous marriage, but for some inane reason I am still here. So are you. Why? I do not know if there is a perfect site or therapist. All I know is it is ultimately up to us for survival. I think the planet would not be the same without you. After all, it is the imperfections that make the world beautiful. Take care - Melanie