Speaking of suicidal thoughts, I was reading an old thread "How I wish to die" from
@Lara_C.
The thread was closed so I thought posting this here.
While I, like most of suicidal folks, have played the "peaceful, perfect, painless" scenario maybe more than a few times in my mind, after looking at it more thoroughly, I came to realize I don't care at all how I'd go. I don't care if it'd be painful or take a long time as long as I'd go in the end. If I'd have peace in the first place I wouldn't think of suicide, would I? lol Thinking of it, the methods I've fantasized mostly are neither painless nor quite peaceful.
The only thing that bugs me is that I don't like others bearing the consequences of my choices/decisions.